You know for so long I've been known as "The Crazy Dreamer" by my friends and family. I used to think of it sometimes as a curse. I would ask, "Why do I dream such impossible things...why can I see them as a reality"? Now before you start feeling sorry for me, my friends and family had every right to think me crazy. I had a new fantastical dream every other day or so. One day I wanted to go to culinary school, the next I wanted to be the next Louise Bourgeois and sculpt a masterpiece that would make history, the next i was going to own my own Interior Design business...and on...and on...and on. As you can see, this seems like more of a curse than a blessing. BUT...there's more! I have a direction now. I've channelled my dreaming to my photography. It's all I dream about...literally. There are some nights I can't go to sleep because I'm so excited about a shoot and I'm thinking of what I'm going to do.:) Along with opening up my abiility to dream big about photoraphy, this has been such a sweet time with God. I truly give Him ALL the glory for my gifts, my talents, my growth and healing and channelling my dreams and aligning them with His dreams for me. I spent an hour last night in worship just praising God that He is allowing me to live my dreams. I praised Him because I know that EVERYTIME I click my shutter He is glorified. The thing that astounds me is that I FINALLY understand that when I am operating in my purpose (photography) that His heart is filled with joy. IT MAKES HIM HAPPY! That is when the tears came and I spent the next 30 minutes weeping realizing that God is so happy that I am living my dreams...HIS dreams for me! I am so inspired by other dreamers before me who dared to dream outside the box...who dreamed the crazy and impossible. Those are the people who left their mark on this world. I don't want to be just a local photographer. I want to make a mark on this world. My ultimate dream is using my photography in the lives of women to empower them...WOA..slow down, crazy, I KNOW. Impossible...I don't think so. I love that I get to take images of women and reveal them (on my blog) and let them see how truly beautiful they are. We women are so hard on ourselves, always picking ourselves apart and telling ourselves what's wrong with us. My ultimate joy is giving a woman an image that dispells those lies she tells herself because she sees her beauty revealed in front of her. Sometimes they can't believe it's really them. That's my heart. It hurst my heart when they see the images and say how ugly they are...not because I think they hate me or my work BUT because I see this flawless, beautiful goddess who doesn't see her beauty. I want to help women love themselves. That's it... Okay, so that's not it :). I want to be a fabulous photographer respected in the industry and sought after by fabulous people. I want it all. But my ultimate joy comes when women see their beauty. I challenge you to love yourself today. I'm not trying to be cheesy and be all Stuart Smalley, although you are good enough, smart enough and dog gonnit people like you. I just challenge you to find your beauty. Find the things you love about yourself. We are all stunning. We need to walk in that! Here are my favorite images of the goddesses I've had the joy of shooting this past year. Ladies, thank you for trusting me to capture you. I look at your images and I am stunned at how stunning each of you are! Shelley Holt, Robyn Jones Clark, Cheryl Whitley (from my day with Scarlett)
Ashley Yaun, Lauren
Courtney Goolsby, Mandi Gaskin (bothe of these amazing women are now prego)
Kami and Kellie. I think pregnant women are so beautiful!
Lyndsay of pink coffee photoart and Cristina of Red Fly Studio
Nevilla and Stephanie
Molly of Red Fly Studio and my BFF Casey
Michelle and Dana
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